Yesterday, while working on my photography blog, I took some time to look through some of the other photography blogs that I follow and I saw this great image of a motorcycle and road sign in the fog. As I admired the image I started thinking about fog and I realized that that is where I am. In a fog.
See, everything is muted in the fog. Colors are muted. Sounds are muted. Even time seems muted. And visibility. Sometimes your visibility is so muted that you feel like you are the only one on earth.
Now, ever notice that when you are trying to see through the fog your instincts are to shine some light on it...but the light only illuminates the fog. And the brighter the light...the brighter the fog.
Ok. So here's the thing. I'm in a fog. Everything is muted. My joy is muted. My worship is muted. My passion is muted. And my visibility is definitely muted to the point of feeling very disconnected...from everything. And everytime I add a new ministry or activity or job all I succeed in doing is lighting up more fog.
Yesterday I shared about change coming. I still don't know what it is but I know that getting out of this fog is an absolute necessity. And yet I'm hesitating. I don't know if it is because I am afraid of what is outside the fog or if I am just worried about what people will say when I start shutting down some of the activities, ministries and jobs... Or maybe I do know and I'm just afraid to be that transparent and vunerable here. Possibly more on that later...
Wow, I didn't know you had this blog! I guess I haven't looked at your profile since before June. Very nice transparent writing here! I like the analogy with the fog but I'm sorry that you're in "it". I've felt that way at times. Something that you're probably already doing but I was not, and that was being in the Word everyday. I kind of let that slide. I've since found that it's a MUST. The first part of James 4:8says it.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the good stuff here!